I praise God for the day my Grandma Mazie taught me the gospel of Jesus Christ and that God loves me and will never leave me nor forsake me. That was 51 years ago and God has never failed me. He walks with me through every storm. He allows me to feel his presence and love when I am lonely. He gives me a perfect, awesome peace during my hardest trials. He comforts me and fills me with joy when I suffer loss. God has sustained me when I should have been paralyzed and my memories lost forever. Even though I turned to alcohol to self medicate and give me liquid courage to deal with things I should have given to him, he not only sustained me, gave me peace and carried me through, he completely healed me. I had surgery, yes, but he gave me the most awesome peace about it and never left me. And where there was spinal canal stenosis and spinal cord impingement, God completely healed me. Where a bone spur developed under the metal plate attached to my cervical spine, God healed me. It went completely away. It's like it just dissolved. I went from being a fall away from paralysis from the neck down and suffering great memory loss to graduating with a Bachelor's in Science degree with a GPA of 3.17 and working somewhere that I can serve God and serve others through Christ. Glory, hallelujah, to God be all the glory, honor and praise.
I wish I could say I've never sinned but I would be lying. I wish I could say I never left God but shame and guilt came between us. But not on his part, he never left me. He was still there. While I was agonizing over sin and shame God miraculously healed me. I learned a valuable lesson. I had thought at one point that I was good. I felt pride. But through that trial I learned that I've never been 'good' and that there is only one who is good and that's Jesus. During that time I developed severe mitral valve prolapse and one side of my heart was enlarged. God miraculously healed me from that. My heart is completely normal. Praise God. Even when I felt so far away because I had let sin creep in God showed me he was there, loving me, watching over me the way a loving, devoted father watches over his daughter. I can tell you about other miracles but it will take a book to share them all.
Never stop believing in God because he's not going to leave you no matter how terribly you've sinned. God loves you unconditionally. He knows everything about you and wants to bless you. God will never leave you nor forsake you. Don't let guilt and shame keep you from having the close relationship that he desires to have with you. Never stop praying. Never give up. Ask God for forgiveness and accept it. Then ask him to help you forgive yourself because God has got you. And if you don't know God, message me and I'll tell you all about him.
Written by: Lisa Clewis
February 21, 2026
